So, whenever I tell someone I am a radio-jockey, one of the questions that comes out after the regular one or two - is "It must be difficult na - to be Happy ALL the time?!" :)
I like this question and I often question myself - am I really like that? Happy all the time? In fact, you would be amazed to know that I am one of those who is NOT from the 'happy-go-lucky' communities. Off-air I am always asked - why aren't you smiling? whats the matter? etc etc.. so for me to be asked the very opposite by people is often strange. And then its weirder coz I dont have an answer really..
Now I cant say about everyone (i.e. the jock community) - but I can figure out my answer may be.
First things first: I do not make any efforts to 'be happy'. I am if I am, and not if I am not.
And now to explore further:
Being On-Air is a high and somehow, now matter how I am feeling when I walk into the studio... it takes me just a song and a mike to get lost in a world that even I am unaware of. I will smile and I will talk... and I will love it when I connect. Connect with someone, somewhere. Somehow. And whenever I do - I know it. And when I know - I just start feeling happier. May be, when I send love and smiles out- I get some back (from someone, somewhere) and it keeps multiplying in me. Therefore, even if I do start the show on a low note, by the time I reach the middle, I could be jumping around in the studio!
So I guess I have my listeners to thank for the happiness I feel everyday. Wow! Thank you.
And yes, there are days when I am out of sorts, something goes wrong around you, you might be feeling angry, sad or lost - but those days you are on auto-pilot then. Mike On = Block everything else.
But sooner or later, I feel like someone's giving me a hug, or smiling at me, or sending love in the 'air' - and I can just feel the high and the 'kick' all over again!
